Or, maybe I'm really crabby because I just rejected work for a full-page, full-color magazine illustration? It would've been great exposure in their 50th anniversary special edition, but the story accompanying the illustration is a feminist's nightmare. All that great exposure would be a mess if I was connected to that article. Sigh. Sometimes principles really get in the way of my happiness.
Who says being an artist is glamorous? I've pretty much done the jobs I've gotten, and felt happy to get paid, even when the pay was crappy. Maybe the magazine will give me another story to illustrate? Or not? Or punish me with a Strawberry Shortcake-ish alternative? Hey, I've got a day job. I don't have to take anything that I don't want to do at this point. That's freedom.
I wrote the editor and briefly told her why I couldn't do it, apologized, and asked if there was another story to illustrate. We'll see how that goes. Whatever the outcome, I'm going to see it as the right outcome. It's part of my grand plan to use my talents in ways that I want to use them, and in ways that bring me the most happiness in the process.