There's a sliver of time when night is over, but it isn't
morning. The plants are weighed down by
dew and the wind is still. The bats and
frogs have eaten all the mosquitoes, the crickets and frogs have found their
mates, and the night animals bed down for the day while the day animals still
sleep. Silence.
I like the in between times. When evening starts, or before morning, or the twilight between
waking and sleeping, or sleeping and waking.
Those are the slices of time for feeling instead of thinking. When fairies are possible and our wishes are
realities. When we're alone with
ourselves to feel the things that we really want instead of what the world
wants us to want.
These can be the times of epiphanies. We can remember our dreams, and our dreams
make sense, before the day takes away our certainties. All things are possible.
Those of you people who pop out of bed first thing in the
morning, and start the coffee, check your emails, wash your windows, or
whatever it is you do with the full energy of a night's rest are missing one of
the best times of the day when you could be snuggling your partner or feeling
the truth of your dreams.
Morning people are self-righteous about how they
get the day going and how the rest of us are lazy slugs. It's no wonder I've wanted to throttle some
of them. I almost came to physical
violence when my college roommate threw open the windows in the middle of
winter to air the place out. I think it
counts as justifiable homicide when my peaceful slumbers are disturbed by snow
falling on my face.
Some people hate silence, and fill it with music, and
activity, and chatter. Maybe I'm the
only one who enjoys it when the power goes out. The refrigerator stops humming, and other stuff I've learned to
tune out shuts off too. It's so
quiet. Peaceful. Healing.
I used to lay in bed and feel the wonder of my body. Red blood cells going one way, white blood
cells going another, the thump of my heart pushing them along, my breath
pulling in oxygen... breathe in healing, breathe out stress...
And then the day starts.
The dog needs out and her bowls filled.
There's stuff to do, people to see, problems to solve. Bosses are too often extraverted morning
people who think everybody else should be just like them. People who open windows in winter, and to
hell with whoever isn't keeping up with their program.
