Last week I said my most recent painting didn't have any twins in it so I'd post it this week instead. Since IF has neglected to give me a new word for the week, I guess the "twin" is the title?
I happily showed Bro2 my recent creative output and he said, "Nobody's going to buy your bitch paintings." I laughed. Selling the paintings isn't really the point, though I wonder if maybe people would want to buy them? I've certainly put a lot of energy into them, and I'm feeling quite pleased with myself. When I told a friend about Bro's comment, she said nobody would know I was bitching if I didn't tell them. "It just looks officey, and lots of people can relate to office clutter."
I've said in the past that I left my last job mad. I decided to store my anger on canvas instead of carrying it around. It seems to be working. Maybe it's a petty vengeance to paint the names of sinners at a religious organization, but I feel better for having done it. Maybe religious people will like my quotes?
The wicked are overthrown by their wickedness, but the just find refuge in their integrity." ~ Proverbs 14:32
"To trust that everything that happens to us is for our good, is hope." ~ Mother Angelica
"You see Lord, how I am wronged. Do me justice! You see their vindictiveness, all their plots against me. You hear their reproach, all their plots against me, the whispered murmurings against me all day long: give them what they deserve Lord according to their deeds: give them hardness of heart: your curse be upon them. Pursue them in wrath and destroy them from under the Lord's heaven!" ~ Lamentations 3:59-66
I had these quotes on my bulletin board at work. One day, I saw a priest reading that quote from Lamentations. He didn't say a word. He knew it was justified.
The charts prove points I doubt anyone else wants to understand. The important thing is I was right. Life would be so much easier if people understood that from the beginning because I believe in the fortune cookie's wisdom: "When working towards the solution to a problem, it always helps if you know the answer."
Nobody assigned me to art therapy. It just seemed like a healthier alternative than bombing the church (or indulging in violent fantasies) -- and I feel healthier. I discovered that despite all the miserable people and events at that job, there were quite a few aspects I really enjoyed, looking up vengeful Bible quotes for instance. And beyond that, I found I was really good at all those numbers, I designed pretty and effective mailings, I improved my writing skills, and maybe most important, I made real friends whom I value.
I smile when I look at my "bitch painting". I think my art therapy worked. Now I'm working on a painting of the nasty job before that :)
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